i see god in you
in all his glory, in such quietness
i see god in you
when you’re shy
and smiling,
when you’re joking
and not aware
i can see your face
the source
and it breaks my heart how far
i stand
from this dance
i fall in love
with a painting
or a film
i may not return to
that often,
i fall in love
secretly
but in infra-red, i know
with all the love i’m falling
that this
will never be mine
my lover has wounds
from all the wars he’s fought
that in my loneliness
i have to heal.
forgive me
for sparing too little
forgive me
for how invisible
you are to me
how beautiful are you
to cover me
against all prayers
ears un-intertwined
nowhere to be found,
resistance
complete.
you’re so quiet, my fingers
dare not touch
such warmth
to say i thank you
for your love.
only smiling will do,
only quieter walks.
and through the warmest of chords
the icicles are singing back it seems
“kin, get some rest
kin, lay your legs,
fall asleep.”
alas, my concern
how can i be selfish enough
to sleep through all that embroidery of yours
singing yourself to sleep,
hybernating
and i listen
trying my best
to hum along
we remembered to kneel;
birds flying high — pan demic
structures that can’t contain
systems any longer,
suits any further
orders any more
what is it in us
that wanted to grow
what is it
we sought to expand,
and while we’re standing here in armor
tell me
why is it collapsing
why is it frail
and where is the trail of hope
we built
all our art for
memory, memory not
can’t, can’t not
remember
